Try it.

Why not?

Cause you are acared? Nervous? Worries about how you will look? Afraid of what might happen?

What would happen if you didn't?

Pick up a new activity, put yourself out there. Push your limits. These are things I have written about before, but I'm telling you, get the motivation, find it in yourself or in someone else to do whatever you need to do.

There is no shame in saying you have a personal crutch. Yes sometimes crush would be a motivation. See what i did there? :p

But really, as someone flying around in the air, in a squirrel body suit, Obvs it is no ideal, but you will do it if you have the right people around sometimes :) stay positive and strong :)

Find the strength and push your limits, if you fail or find no joy in it. Simply don't do it again. Life is too short to just keep hiding.

Cheers!

CB

Be you.

Nothing attracts people more than the truth. Everyone wants it. Even whenbtheybcant handle it. That is a post all on it's own.

I just want to remind you that you are beautiful, no matter what say, no words can bring us down ooohhhhhh ooooouuhhh. Ya random song break out, get over it. 

Hope you are well, and when I say you I mean, you not the person you are pretending to be when you are on a high pressure date or at work behind the counter of walmart. That is not you. In public and society, we seem that you. The reality of it, that is not you. 

Random thought, imagine Gerard butler as the new punisher!?? 

Anyways, just saying, thatbisbbotnwhonypunare just like how when I walk and talk, normally I am not me, unless I like you or plan on spending time around you. Try hard but you won't know me. If you grab me at the bar to explain a story of some guy who started a physical altercation with you, clearly you don't know me because buddy, don't frikin touch me.

If you are someone who I am seeing and you are seeing other people; ew. Clearly you don't know me. 

When we meet at the bar, I already decided whether or not you will learn who I am or of I'm just going to make buddies with you because I enjoy interesting conversations and smile and nod with most of what you say.

I dated a girl for almost a year, she didn't learn who I was till the very end. I'll never forget that day because it came clear to me, people don't always like who you are and when you try to hide it for a long time, they are bound to see the seams of your story. They may say you changed or that something is wrong with you, the reality of it, it's who you are, and there is nothing wrong with it. What I'm saying implies some heavy, and I mean heavy things. But the way it is, may not be the waiver want to see it, but that is how it is. 

Like the joker and batman. An unstopable force meets and unmovable object. This is the reality  of human nature and free will. Many people try to justify the ridiculousness of people, saying this or that or whatever is in our genes. Honestly, we, at least I feel, are products of our environment, some of us good childhood and others not so good. 

We are people, we are who we are, some of us not consider people because of defect or actions taken against people of the same species, but such things happen when we have power we have no control over, or understand fully for that matter. 

People are who they are, society's norm is determined by the majority and currently majority believes in blah blah blah. Those who deviate are treated accordingly. 

We need to embrace who we are, I'm not saying go out and murder someone or go steal a big screen tv or anything. People should be comfortable with themselves, and I'll tell you, of you are one of those individuals looking for the right person. Being yourself is the way you will find youngster ending because that is how you determine who can and can't handle your bs.

Embrace who you are and life becomes so much easier, less hiding meaning less energy and worry spent on disguises, figuratively speaking. And if you are someone who needs to hide themselves. Well, I wish you all the best and suggest you find at least one person that you can open up to. We all, good or bad, need someone. Anti-social beings may obviously find this harder but I mean, as a truebeliever I feel like there is always hope. Spiderman #15 from the maximum carnage series. 

Is there really a life worth saving with Cletus kassidy when he will most likely spend the rest of his days in stasis and will not ever be able to be helped? The act of even just being willing to risk life and limb, spoke truly enough that yes, it is. 

Don't let the venom inside of you get the best of your spiderman. Carnage is the character in us all that we find to be our flaws, but do we always have to kill and do we need to ponder is it nevessary to hide it. 

It is different for everyone, I don't like being touched, I like skinny, including excessively skinny girls, I feel fat all the time and am hyper active sexually. I smoke and hate it. I love eating the best tasting foods and lots of then but avoid it like the plague by saying I'm full. I write this knowing that no one reads them. Really wish people would and wish that they would help someone cause I'm a conceded person when it comes to karma. I can at times say I'm trying to be altiristic, other times, I'm doing it just saying that I am altiristic. 

I love my family and friends. Truth, never deny it or forget it. Oh! And have a good night.

Cheers.

CB

Road trip.

On the road. 

Been on the road a long time, never on this road for this purpose. 

Been on the road but not with this entire crew. 

Head to Peterborough, Ottawa. Then Montreal. Spending sometime with bro and then off to north bay. Home is Hamilton. 

With ma, sis and cousin. Cousin's first rt but done a similar drive to tbay and Peterborough, Borden and Barrie with ma and sis before. Dad is at work.

Things you need on a road trip,

1. Money

2. Comfort, whether it is in the form of a big truck fully loaded and spaced or a tight car and your own blanket or pillow

3. Vehicle

4. GPS and map, in case gps glitches out

5. Communication

6. Knowledge of Tim Hortons around you :p

7. Your belongings designated for the trip

8. Knowledge of the place you are going to

9. Good music

10. Water.

There are Obvs other things, but most part, these are as basic as you can get without being too specific. 

iPhones and other smartphones normally knock a bunch of things off this list, like pillow, blanket, etc. kidding Obvs, but check out the new blanket and pillow comfort app being brought to you by apple. Lol kidding Obvs...silly person. 

Visa card that gets you points is so clutch! Just be sure to pay that off.

Ma likes to use higher end hotels soooo yap pints and member rewards to the max. She is not as for hard Tim's As dad and I are but meh. Blue collar canadian coffee for the win.

Got my bags packed, one is clothes and what not, the other is novelty. So bday present for bro and sis, iPad, chargers, etc.

I usually try to blog or journal write on the road while talking or joking with whomever I'm with, nothing else to do, so might as well :p 

That and daydreaming are two things I never feel like I have time for which is good and bad because I hammer things done usually for hours on end when I get to them.

Usually my alparebts  and I leave super late or super early in the day to arrive mid day or morning. Try to avoid late night drives unless you are a night owl. 

I wishbinhadbbeen taking pics at every Tim Hortons I have been to cause in Ontario I have certainly cleared more than most people I would think :p 

We road tripped to Texas, Thunder Bay, and I have gone to Duluth/lutsen with my buddies. 

Hoping one day to hit up Texas and New Orleans trip with a good buddy of mine.

I want to make the final road trip for my buddies next end of their school year if possible, doubt it but would like to. 

Wouldn't mind a road trip across South America at some point either with a friend or two. Che Guevara did this before becoming the man we all remember him being. 

Eventually want to backpack around Europe and Asia as well. 

Step one. Learn mandarin...this may take. Awhile...

Your first tattoo.

I don't know how many people that told me they got their first tattoo on their younger years. 

These younger versions of themselves got laid cause they had ink, meant something to them at a time. But there is also a reason people get cover ups my friend. 

My little cousin is the same age I was when I was craving tats. 16, or 15, you just wanna be that billy badass mofo on the block that all the girls are like "DAMN!" And all the guys are like "Shit dawg. Where you come up with that?" Lol I know for me I had a meaning for every tat I wanted and it was so deep, reality of it was, they were just badass and I was giving meaning to them. 

We don't know who we are at that young and we won't know for a long time. We don't know what lasts and what falls through in life. Everyone has their different opinion about the first tattoo, but  mine is simple, make it one that means something to you, that speaks to you...no frikin zodiac signs are not speaking to you. You are apeaking to them, they are an animal that soooooooo many people associate themselves with. Frik I might as well go get "team fish goat" on my forearm or something. The point I'm making here is. You know when you have found our first tat cause nothing will stop you. 

I'll never forget it. I been talking about getting it and what it would be, this and that. Always talked about going but never did. Why? Simple. I was not as motivated to get it, cause it was not something I really wanted. Months later, I get home from school. I'm reading my comics and online looking up marvel pics, BAM! There it is. It had been in front of me the whole time but I saw it and wondered why they didn't put it on the comics anymore...the spiderman face stamp in the bottom left corner of the comic. That's right now you get it, just as I did. I was not even thinking about the tats. It spoke to me. Marvel. You taught me so much and as a kid, you were something I always loved. No matter how ridiculed in was when I was a teenager or pre teen. Still play with toys? Loser. Screw you bud! Spiderman is and always will be someone that makes me think of my dad, batman- shit he was my dad for a Halloween! The power rangers were my siblings and the xmen were my best friends. Don't tell me I'm a kid for caring about something that gives me the hope, love and strength that we all need to make it through this life. Cause I mean, in the end when you are complaining about being lost and not having any idea of how to deal with this or that...I'll be at home during the apocalypse with my best friends and/or family playing a board game, watching something or maybe even playing yugioh, you spend your final moments in a panic; but me, no matter what, I always have something to help keep my spirit up. 

If never read a comic or have it a chance, I suggest you start now, you never know when someone calls you up with unfair life event. 

And yes I do believe I. Superheroes. I do know superheros and when they time comes, I hope I'm able to ascend just as elegantly as the ones I know. 

To my friends and family. I love you, thanks for the inspiration, and to Stan Lee. Keep on making growing up fun for the kids, the parents and everyone in between. 

Your first...

The first anything is always usually most important. First time, first tat, first love, first date. Everything, is as we see it a series of moments that we (usually more than not) want to never forget. 

When we start somethihg we thoroughly enjoy, we like to remember that canonical day we learned how to...

It is always important to value that first time. Never forget that fist time and Whenever you are having your doubts remember that usually it was that first time that got you hooked in the first place. So instead of banging your head against the wall everyday in your office because you are a forester but instead of saving firsts, you are killing forests with all the bureaucratic paper work you need to do; figure it out, get back to that wonder and are that you had when you first started your program and you learned that you will be outside, climbing trees solving the foresters plight and what not. 

As a teacher, I have seen, teachers that started off everyday, a new lesson, everyday, wonder and awe that baffled not only the students but the teacher themselves. 

Go back to those days and figure out what happened, what led you astray and weary of the path you used to trek so proudly before?

Cheers!

C.B.

Love.

Sappiest and longest post ever. 

Ever been in love? Right! Who knows!? We don't unless we are in love. Not the kind of love that we feel for a person for a bit till something happens and that's that. No love is when you say, 5 years later, you still just want to be with that person, the hardest part about live is that it isn't true unless it is mutual. 

Love has many shapes and forms, we never know it's real until it hAppens, and thatbisbwhybthebmost important thing to remember about love is remembering to love or care about a person like you never have before :) 

When you get involved with someone and you are cautious or take lessons from a previous relationship, you are recreating that previous failed relationship, and thusly setting your new relationship up for disaster. I know it iS a grey area. We are supposed to learn from mistakes, and I will be the first to say I have made a lot do mistakes, one of the best things I have ever done though, just go into a relationship with a fresh slate. I have tried to be a bit cautious on new relationships in the past and the girl would always say, "well I'm not your ex, I wouldn't do that!" And it's true, I just needed to see it for myself and learn the hard way I guess. But ya honestly, all people need to learn to love, no one just loves. Regardless of what popular belief may be, there will always be someone out there for you, sure, there could be soulmates out there, that one person you click best with; that person that is the other half to the soul's true form #thestoryoflove but there will always be someone who can make you happy if uo let them. When you have your heart broken, don't be bitter, think of it as a chance to find out what you are really looking for in someone, or what you need to work on to make yourself everything you can be.

In contest to popular belief, someone's it is important to change ourselves for people. I mean, we shouldn't make it feel like work, because if we really like the person, we could make the change with no problem. I'm not saying superficial things or silly things like your favourite colour are things we should be changing, but if you are the mind of guy or girl who enjoys an ego boost by flirting with the opposite sex, maybe something To work on, granted some people say love is not jealous, but I mean my personal belief is, why waste your time trying to make others think you are sexy, you trying to make yourself attractive to attract the one you will forever care about, but if you truly have that person, why work for the approval of others? I have been on both ends of this and it sucks both ways cause you learn quickly, something's gotta give. And being single, you have a lot of time to reflect and learn from mistakes, don't regret but acknowledge, see next post for more on regrets :p

Every person, I don't care how bitter or pessimistic you are, every person has a yearning to belong, maybe not everyday of the week, but we are social creatures, look at tom hanks on castaway, thatbisbtotally feasible, Wilson is a shining example of people's yearning to fit in with society. The human psyche is much like an orca's pYche. Naturally social beings, our mammalian brains are aimilar on the sense that the social/emotional parts of the brain are a bit larger than the others. 

Be open and aware, you never know when you will be taking a picture of someone for them on Halloween and then randomly running into them at a bar you never try to meet people at and end up on a coffee date with them that turned into dinner. #theonethatgotaway 

Or even a girl from class that you run into and help study for a class that actually turned into short yet memorable fling that ended just cause fear that things were moving fast. #hoplessromantic 

You never know when you will meet someone you didn't think you would end up engaged to because the first contact was extremely awkward for you, but two years later, you are engaged and thinking about kids, don't lie bro, I know you are, say what you will but she got you thinking! #congratulations

Or! Or of you meet someone who was moving away for school, and ya it's 3 hours or so away but you can't make it and it's such a commitment still in highschool after dating for only 6 months.   After being on and off for a bit, you end up living together and making it work through random meets and figuring of your future, you end up so far from home but starting a life with the person that you have been through hell and back with! #truelove

Or when you end up like jack and Jessie, I'm so calling you buggers out, of everyone I know, all the couples between the one above this paragraph and you, I have learned and seen so much that applies everywhere in life,  #proud #envious not of either of you but of what you were able to find with another person. 

Stay positive folks and love like you never loved before, don't put the word of a pedostoool but don't throw it around, mean it and appreciate it.

Cheers! 

C.B.

Over 25 years, through hell and back, sometimes I wonder how anyone could, but you are always there for each other, no matter what. Xoxoxo thanks mom and dad

Do not just look.

Do not just look. But see, see the forest for the trees.

Studies have been done, Asian cultures are much more aware of the grander picture than us in North America. Asian cultures have buildings that are not so uniform, and actually it is not just Asian cultures in particular but more collectivist cultures. These cultures encourage higher thinking as individuals apart of a community, breaking functional fixedness. 

Collectivist culture is where individuals are moving through life to benefit the group rather than just themselves; this is defined through production into the economy, family orientation, etc.

Individualistic culture is defined by the phenomenon where people break from the community and move about life in such a way that they are trying to make something of themSelves for themselves. 

Functional fixedness, this is when we only see an item as used for a specific task and nothing else when in reality, it could do many things! A chair for example, we sit in it right? Well say you are in the kitchen, you can't reach the cookie jar, and there is no step ladder? What to do? Leave? Ppsshhh ya right, you want that cookie! So you functional fixedness would be what stops you from realizing you are able to just climb the chair and obtain the jar. Mostly like motivation would be pretty high for something as gratifying as a cookie so the individual would move the chair and climb it. 

A lot of people look and do not see, they miss out on so much or drop themselves into holes because they don't realize something happen around them important that they should be paying attention to. 

This is not just a physical thing, this is just like when a guy likes a girl, they go on a date and she subtly leans in for a kiss and he gives that awkward, alright, well I'll talk to you later, peace! Or when a girl hangs out with a guy friend of hers who is constantly throwing himself at her and she honestly doesn't realize it. 

When you look at a landscape filled with trees and nothing but their green tops what do you see? Nature, trees, a forest or, home, the beginning, the world as it should be, true progress, a history textbook in the most natural form? 

When you look at metropolis, do you see the city of New York, the Statue of Liberty, an American state, buildings and lights, or do you see congestion, progress, concrete forests, and absolute beauty come sunset?

Something to think about, next time you are standing in that river watching the water break around your ankles and you feel the current between your chilled toes. 

Don't just look, see.

Cheers!

C.B.

I am looking at a window, but I see the frost. Thought process, but it's summer and warm beneath us. Science, the more you know and experience. 

Make the small things count.

"All the, small things. Something, something....say it ain't so! I will not go! Turn the lights off, carry me home, nah nah nah na na"

My little song intro, butchered song intro I mean :p

Hope your morning is going well, so! You are saying you have a garbage day, or rough life? Are you above ground? Are accessing this blog? Well if so, your life is actually not all that bad. You are living and seem to have access to resources to enrich your life that many others do not.

Be happy, don't worry things will get better, actually they already are my friend, you just need to open your eyes...next two topics to success :p

So, you have a 20 min walk to town? On your own? Not looking forward to it and can't drive? Well hey throw in some headphones and start moving, you feel better and you will see things around you. Don't just look at them, see them.

On this walk, you notice two puppies playing in a yard, cute little puppy dobers, (your opinion is childish, noted and forgotten, they are such awesome dogs!) you may even have your own but do you ever just notice something as you walk by, who knows what you will see in that moment of tranquility, that moment when you are a passing spirit to others and highs around you. You go unnoticed and see how things react without noticing they are being seen. Out lives are so determined by societal norms and survelience that is hard to find that moment in life when you can just see a natural action of someone or something. 

It is similar to seeing a river run over the smooth tops of protruding rocks, it's beautiful, smooth, a shimmering blanket. When you step in it, you are now great the smoothness of that blanket, it is not acting in it's natural state, it is being interrupted by you. 

Note that a moment of tranquility is just one of the many ways to make the small things count.

Making the small things count can be even just smiling when someone does you a kindness. On smiling, you are Acknowledging that someone has helped you out! You have acknowledged yourself and the other person that you enjoyed that kindness and appreciated it. Who knows maybe that person has been taken advantage of for so long that, your recognition made them feel better about themselves. As a teacher, you will see a lot of appreciation and recognition as well as not so many moments of appreciation, not because you are not appreciated but just because some folks do not think it's a big deal or just simply may be tied up with a more pressing matter.

When you come across something that strikes your attention, just stop, and appreciate that moment, return the favour. Whatever you need to do to

make that moment count. I suggest you do it because I mean, how are you to know when it may be the last moment worth saving in your life. 

Cheers!

C.B.

Picture of Costa Rican sunset in guanacaste 

Don't worry, be happy.

Hey folks! Good morning! 

It is good, don't tell me it is bad! You are awake are you not!? Ppfftttt you wish you didn't wake up? Why? Broken heart? Or just broke? 

Money comes and goes, your health will get better, just smile more! Your heart will be healed with time, and if you don't think so, well you come find me, I'll make you better, promise! I kind of have this way about me, I like to have fun and even more so I enjoy trying to make people smile, show then things they have never seen before.

Anyways, why you worried? You know what tomorrow is? A chance for the world to end! (For those of you who are miserable) or a day for things to change for the better! (For those of you who may just have had a tougher day than usual). 

What makes you happy...aside from oxytocin and endorphins? :p seeing people you care about, exercise (actually. It's science fool!) and if you don't like exercise maybe you enjoy puzzle and mental strain, try video games or something! All you need is a blank state, you clear your head and I guarentee you will feel better, of course I am keeping this pg 13 ish so I can't say tinder and pof are great ways to make yourself feeling better when you are down and I highly recommend you don't use those if you are down because a girl you are seeing or boy, are giving you a hard time, that may be a little bit of a negative reinforcement on the situation. 

Bob Marley says it best, don't worry be happy, cause everything will be alright. 

Is the glass half empty or half full? Optimism my friend, creates a positive aurora around you, that influences people more than you know. Of you promote happiness, then people are more likely to be happy around you. If people are happy around you, well the chances of something negative happening around you are a lot mess likely. 

:)

R.I.P. Bob Marley,

Love, the whitest listener you have.

C.B.

Ps. Frowning also creates more wrinkles ladies!

Don't be discouraged when erased.

I had just written a long and heavy hearted post about something, I am so mad I don't even want to say it. I was pretty happy with it, then I accidentally swished the screen on my iPhone. Great. 

This happens all the time. Not just with blogs, but thank you letters, hand written greetings #lakeheadalumni #phonathonptoblems. These things happen, and are we really going to let that hard work just drift away? I mean granted, of what we were typing is not really all that important then it is not a big deal to just say screw it and move on. But! If we are saying something that as absolutely important, it is out human duty to share it with the other folks that may be struggling with the same things we are or have struggled with.

Just another public service announcement, brought to you by another frustrated writer :p

Cheers!

C.B.